June 2004 Archives

Hi *waves*. So I have two days off from Vons (I've already wasted today). I plan to take full advantage of this and sleep as much as possible. I'm going to get some errands done, but mostly I'll sleep. Sleep is good. If I could get paid to sleep, I'd be happy.

Anyway, I've decided to take on another hostee, or at least consider someone to host. If you're interested, send your name, e-mail, and site url to hosting@little- sin.net. You must know html, ftp and be good at design. If I like I'll e-mail you back. If I don't like, you won't hear from me, sorry.

Okay, that's about it. I need to get off my ass and finish reading Wolves of the Calla (Stephen's 5th installment of The Dark Tower). I just haven't had time. All I've been doing is working. Oh yeah, Allie's back. Yay!

Peace and Love.

Hi *waves*. So I bought The Forever Knight Trilogy - Part 1 at DeepDiscountDVD.com. You're talking to a Forever Knight fan from way, waaaaaay back. I love that fucking show. I had such a huge crush on Geraint Wyn Davies *blush*, so I'm totally looking forward to that showing up in the mail soon. Fun, fun stuff.

In other movie news, I'm totally in love with the movie, The Outsider. I have a new found appreciation for Tim Daly and Naomi Watts. Tim has always been a good looking guy, but he was totally hot in this movie. And the only thing I've seen Naomi Watts in was The Ring. I don't like or dislike her, but she was really good in this movie. Romantic Westerns with beautiful cinematography always get me. If you haven't seen it check it out. I broke myself when I bought Forever Knight, but I get paid every week so it's all good.

Oh yeah, I'm pretty sure I'm over Mark. The reality of his unavaliableness (is that even a word?) is starting to sink in. Actually I don't really know what I saw in him in the first place. Why do we always get crushes on people just to look back and realize they weren't all that to begin with? Human nature is a strange creature.

Gotta go. Peace and Love.

Hi *waves*. I've decided to go out for a drink (or 10) after work on saturday. I haven't gone out for a drink in a while and although I'll have to work on sunday, I'm demoing pineapples so it's not like I have to be sober. I can do that with a needle full of heroin sticking out of my arm, so a few drinks won't hurt.

Anyway, yeah, maybe some strawberry marguritas at the local bar will do it. That will definately take the edge off of work. I'll get drunk and hit on guys, then fall asleep on my bed room floor and drag myself into work hung over and irritated. That should be fun.

I'm just tired of working. That's it, period. Fuck working. Working sucks. It should be band.

To answer Karen's question: There was a lot of stuff left out of Salem's Lot, but that often happens with Stephen King adaptions. His writing is so detailed that it's impossible to fit everything into a movie. That is painfully obvious with "Hearts in Atlantis". It was a great film, but it was only based on the first fourth of the book. The book goes on and on from there with many different characters, but like I said, they can't fit all that into a movie.

As far as Salem's Lot goes, I thought it was far and away the best adaption of that book. Much scarier than the orginal TV mini-series. Much more intense. But that is to be expected as TV has less restrictions on what they can and can't show as compared to 1979.

The only beef I have with this version is the way they pretrayed the part of Father Callahan. They made him out to be a bad guy in this version but that was so far from Stephen's vision it isn't even funny. Callahan did infact get "baptized" by the vampire, but he didn't turn into a servant. After he was baptized he caught the last bus out of Salem's Lot to New York and lived there for awhile drinking and working for a homeless shelter. He eventually became a vampire hunter and travelled all around the country. He finally ended up in a mirror world of ours called Mid-world destined to run into the last gunslinger, Roland of Gilead.

You have to read "The Dark Tower" Series, Stephen King's magnum opus, if you will, about a loan gunslinger who must travel the depths of mid-world to save the nexus of all worlds, The Dark Tower. That's the only way you'll understand Callahan's part in Salem's Lot and beyond.

Callahan actually shows up in the 5th installment of the series in a little town off the edge of End-world that is terrorized by masked wolves on horses. He's also found "Black 13," the last crystal ball in a set of magic balls called "Bend 'o the Rainbow" and is the most dangerous, allowing the owner to travel through time.

So, you can see why I was a little pissed that they totally changed up Callahan's character like that. Ben Mears didn't chase him and he sure as hell didn't kill him. Callahan didn't even stay around to see Salem's Lot burn.

... but other than that I liked it.

I highly recommend reading "The Dark Tower" once you get into it you'll realize that all of Stephen's books have some connection to the series. It's very exciting to read it and then remember a scene from another book or short story that ties into what your reading right then. Every single book or short story he has ever written has some referrence to The Dark Tower. Some more than others, but it's still really cool.

Yeah, I'm gonna go now. Peace and Love.

Hi *waves*. Called in sick to work today. Yes, I really am sick. I had these totally intense dreams last night and then I woke up this moring with my throat all swelled up, so I called in. I don't feel guilty about it either. Considering all the times Vons called me in on days off to work, I deserve to be sick for a day.

Anyway, I feel like shit. My throat still hurts, but I'll survive. Thankfully I don't have to work tomorrow. I really need to get some errands done like put my check in the bank. I'm not broke, but I still need the put that money in the bank.

I'm also watching the remake of Salem's Lot on TNT. It's soooo much better than the original TV mini-series! The original sucked! I'm not a fan of Rob Lowe in his later years (although he was totally hot when he was in the brat-pack), but he isn't bothering me playing the title character. Stephan King TV movies can go either way, so I'm glad this one isn't crap.

I know I'm boring you. I'm boring myself so I'm going to go. Peace and Love.

Hi *waves*. Yeah, as you can see, new layout. It's not as busy as my other layouts, but it will do nicely for me. I feel like I need to clear away all the clutter in my life and get down to some spartan space. This layout does that. Besides, Gale doesn't need a whole lot of fancy brushes etc. This man can stand on his own.

Not much to say tonight. went to work, had lunch with Mark, came home, put up the new layout, have to go back to work tomorrow. My entire life is work. Work, work, work, that's all I freakin do. I need a vactation. I've been talking about going away for my birthday this year. I'm definately going to do that. I need to get away from my life and be someone else for a while. Leave Tiffany and all her fucked up baggage in Long Beach while the real me goes off and has some fun. Yeah, that sounds nice.

Anyway, I gotta take my ass to bed. I have to get up early tomorrow for you guessed it, work. I wish I was rich. A sugar- daddy would be nice too. I'm not too good to date someone for money. Sad but true. Peace and Love.

Hi *waves*. It just hit me that I lost all my entries from the last like 3 months when I had to reinstall MT. That fucking sucks. I had some pretty clever entries. Shit.

Anyway, yes I am working on a new layout. It's going to feature Gale Harold (he plays Brian Kinney on Queer as Folk). Damn he's fine and to my happiness, he's straight as an arrow. Nice! Oh stop whinning! The really hot guys are always gay. Let us girls have this one.

Anyway, I've decided to stop talking about Mark. The whole thing just makes me feel ashamed and I want it to go away, so the best thing to do is to stop talking about it. It's not healthy, but it works.

See you peeps on the flipside! Peace and love.

Hi *waves*. It's official. I'm working to hard. Having two jobs sucks. All work and no play makes Tiffany a very bad girl. I figured that's why I was acting all weird about that guy. It was exhaustion. I was too tired to think straight.

Speaking of the guy, I kinda gave him the cold shoulder that day. I wasn't mean, I was civil, but I certainly wasn't as "friendly" has I had been. I wasn't flirting before, I don't do that, but back then I thought I had a chance. Anyway, I'm pretty much over that whole thing and I'm starting to feel comfortable around him again, but now, since I did the "civil" thing, he's turned around and done the same to me.

What the fuck? He was all chipper and happy and smiling when I came back to work after he spilled that info. Then, after I kept my distance, he does the same thing the next day. Am I projecting? Is it me? My sister thinks that because I get along so well with everyone else in the Deli, and I was acting the same with them and different with him that he feels left out. I decided not to be a bitch and tried to included him the last two days. I don't want anyone to be left out. I know he's shy and all, but I'm not one of those people who leaves people out just because they aren't as outgoing or open as I am.

Anyway, I think I may have made him uncomfortable with the distance thing after the info spill. I don't think he's stupid, so maybe he put 2 and 2 together and figured out that I may have liked him then got freaked out by the whole "married with a baby's mama" deal and got freaked out himself. We'll see what happens tomorrow. I just want things to be like nothing ever happened and I never had feelings for him at all. I'd be really happy with that.

Enough really personal stuff. I need a new layout. I've already started working on something. I don't know if I'll keep it, but I like it so far. This vector was nice at first, but with all layouts that stay up to long, I'm getting bored with it. I'll probably have time to put something up later this week.

I'll see you peeps later. Peace and love.

Hi *waves*. I have to go to work in a few hours. I don't want to go. Not just because working sucks, but also because I'll have to face my ill-fated crush. That whole situation is so fucked up that it's... well fucked up.

Okay, so I have a crush on a guy who works in the Service Deli. His name is Mark. He is blonde, about 5'10 and has blue eyes that make you feel like he's seeing into your soul. He's quite and shy, and terribly cute.

What's the problem you ask? I think problems is more the word, so let's count out all three nails in the coffin of a relationship that never was.

1. He's only 21 and I'm 23. I know some of your are thinking what's the big deal, but guys are 4 years delayed in there development as compaired to women. Therefore, although his actual age is 21, he's really 17.

2. He's married. I think that one pretty much explains it's self.

3. His wife is 4 months pregnant with their first child.

We're talking as he is making my sandwich for lunch and spills these tidbits of info out of nowhere. I had to stand there all composed like I didn't care, but inside I was sreaming. I wanted to cry. I know for a second there my face must have collapsed, but I'm sure he didn't notice.

Me liking this guy and thinking I may have had a chance with him wasn't entirely wishful thinking. He doesn't wear a wedding ring. I asked him why and he said he can't afford it, but really people! How much would a little sliver or gold band cost. It doesn't have to be the real deal, but you should wear something so stupid girls like me don't get our hopes up. It's called false advertising. Look into it damnit!!!

I've been stewing over this for the past 2 days and I've come to some scary realizations about myself. What's scary is, I actually think I could have worked my way around the whole married thing if he wanted to start something. I kept thinking, "if only she wasn't pregnant." Isn't that terrible. I'm an awful home-wreaking bitch and I haven't even done anything. Another scary thing is that I was hoping he was totally miserble in his marriage and only married her because she got knocked up. He always looks kinda sad and disconnected so this could be, but that still doesn't give me the right to put that out into the universe.

What is wrong with me? Why am I thinking these things about this guy? I've had crushes on guys and never wished their marriages ill-will. Then again, I've never had a crush on a married guy. Maybe I wouldn't have let myself have a crush on him at all if I'd known he was married from the get go.

Anyway, I just feel like shit and today I have to work in the service deli and run a sandwich demo until 1pm today. He will talk to me and smile at me and be adorable. I will be nice and act like I don't have any interest in him when really I'm sobbing inside. Today is going to be a long and fucked up day.

Hi *waves*. Fucking Movabletype has pissed me off to no end that past few weeks. I had to reinstall the whole fucking thing just to fix the problems I had with the upgrade. Do I blame the staff at Movabletype? Yes, of course, but I blame fucking comment spammers most. If they weren't such asses, I wouldn't have had to go through all this fucking trouble. It is not cool spending your day off reinstalling your journal software.

Anyway, I shall be posting again and you shall be allowed to comment on said posts. However, I'm still working on a way to combat the comment spamming. I'm going to install that comment closed plugin and maybe MTblacklist too.

So there's your update. I know you don't care, but whatever. Peace and Love.