Dirty, filthy things...
Hi *waves*. Why is it that when you have tons of shit going on in your life, you don't blog at all? Is it lack of time? Maybe it's that everything that is happening to me is bad and I really don't want to rehash it in my blog for fear of bringing up the pain all over again. Yeah, that's probably it.
Actually my life isn't that bad. Oh, it's bad, but compared to some people, I have it pretty good. I mean, when you read about women in Sudan getting raped by muslim invaders who want to degrade them while trying to breed the black out of the population, it kind of puts things into prospective. Or, when you read about two women who were denied treatment for their cancers because they didn't have inssurance (healthcare in this country is fucked), it really makes you think... hmm, things could be worse. Not much worse, but there is still a margin for downgrade here.
I'm just growing more disgusted with the human race each passing day. We are so greedy and heartless. We'll fuck anyone over to get what we want. It's true for everyone. There are very few good, loving people in the world. There is always a base motive for good deeds. When you parents say they love you, they don't, they just want something. Humans do evil everyday, even on the smallest scale. We can't help it, it is our nature. People are just dirty, filthy things.
It's amazing how working in a grocery store has made me so jaded, but watching people shop is like observing a microcosom of human behavior.
I really need another job. The one I have now is making me hate the very thing that I am. I can't stop being human and that sucks. Peace.
Ugh, I know how you feel about watching people shop. Today somebody went into the first floor bathroom right next to the salon I work in, and they were SMOKING IN THE BATHROOM. So I called security when I started smelling smoke out on the floor, and it was bothering shoppers, but security is so damned slow in our store that nobody came and the woman got away with it. I should've stopped her myself, the old whore.
That's true, almost everybody has some kind of motive when they do a good deed. I do a lot of charity, though, and I have no motive for it except to try and make people's lives a little better. Buffalo is a really crappy place right now and a lot of people need help here.
I've gotta get to bed -- exams, studying, and papers beckon me this week to finish up UB stuff.
See if you can get a job in an office. A lot of places have great entry-level stuff that you can move up on. And in the meantime, look up a cosmetology school near you. You will be awesome!
love, jackie
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hey darlin!!! i know what you mean, i think everyone should go international!!!! ahh can't b bothered to explain but yeah INTERNATIONALISM ALL THE WAY!!! i think i've been brainwashed from school!! haha anyways, i was stoppin by to ask if you sent me the e-mail with the new log in info, i can't get into my paparazzi account anymore? speak to you soon!!!
BTW, look at Emma's layout at http://www.cloudyday.org/ because that boy looks awfully familiar!!!!!
luv jackie