June 2005 Archives

Hi *waves*. It's 1:30AM and I'm not the least bit tired. I have to go to work today at 11AM. Oh well, regardless of if I get sleep, I still have to go to work.

Speaking of work, It's Friday which means I'm getting paid. I'm actually waiting for my direct deposit to post so I can see how much I have (which isn't going to be much) so I can pay bills.

It's hard to pay all these bills with so little money. There's a lot of stuff I want that, in reality, aren't that expensive or that impractical, but seem so out of reach... it's quite depressing.

But whatever, I'll pay my bills, buy some groceries and if I have something left over, maybe take myself out to lunch and some drinks with Mother on Sunday. My sister is leaving for Dallas, Texas in the morning and is going to be gone for the weekend, so I'm sure my mom will be bored. I suppose I can afford to take us out.

Anyway, I need to work on a new layout for Matt- Czuchry.Com. I'm getting bored with the current one and I think I can do better. I just need to get off my lazy ass.

Peace and Love. Blessed it be.

Hi *waves*. It's about to be 5PM on a beautiful California summer day and I've just crawled out of bed. Okay, not just, but almost. I've been awake for about an hour and I have to say that not working today, being able to sleep in and just generally being lazy is very nice indeed.

I haven't been completely lazy. I still have to wash clothes as I'm practically out of clean things to wear and I have to wash my uniform for work tomorrow. I would have done this already, but my fucked up neighbors (who always hog the washer and dryer) have managed to break the damn thing so no one can wash now. Assholes. So now I'm off to a public laundry. There's a new one next to my video store that's all nice and shiny. Yay!

In other productive news, I've decided to get off my lazy ass, open up Microsoft access and create a computerized checkbook for myself. I have all my purchases nicely organized by spending type, date etc with an ending balance to show me how much I've spent and how much I have avaliable to me. For someone who is a complete idiot when it comes to money, this is quite the accomplishment. I'm very proud of myself and I'm determined to manage my money wisely. I want Triple A credit, damnit! Yes, that is my dream.

Alright, I'm off to find something clean to wear so I can go wash the bags of clothes that are slowly taking over my room. Peace, Love and Blessed it be.

Hi *waves*. So things are going to hell in a hand-basket at work. I'm getting really depressed and am having to take a Xanx just to make it through the day. It's partly my fault as I'm not taking my zoloft like I'm supposed to and it's not making my job any easier.

I'm beginning to hate my manager with a burning passion and that just it's healthy. I'm sick to fucking death of her scheduling me to close the deli and that's it.

You want to know my schedule this week? First off I got 30.5 hours this week which is bullshit in it's self, but I digress...

Monday: 2pm to 8pm
Tuesday: off
Wednsday: 2pm to 9pm
Thrusday: 3pm to 9pm
Friday: 11am to 8pm
Saturday: 4pm to 8pm
Sunday: off

4pm to fucking 8pm. A four hour shift to do nothing but clean up everyone elses mess. That is basically what I do. I clean up after everyone. For the last three or four months, that has been my schedule. It's like I'm a maid and the funny thing is I wouldn't even care if I was getting paid decent money, but I'm not. I'm getting paid shit to do three times the work. God, it makes me so angry I just want to scream! I wish I could quit but I can't afford it. I want to cry.

Mark thinks it's because we're the only non-Mexicans working there (he's getting the same shifts I am) and I have to admit that has crossed my mind. However, I don't think it's just a Mexican thing with my manager. It's a Mexican Female thing with her. Robert (who is a very cool guy) is Mexican and she treats him like shit too. But she really hates Mark. She totally rides him for no reason. I think it's because he's a white male. It's very stupid.

So yeah, I need to get back on my zoloft like a good little girl cause that is the only way I'm going to cope. I've also been bugging the store assistant manager (also named Mark) to make me a checker which he has promised me to do. I believe him, but I was also honest with him and told him the vibe in the deli is not cool and I don't want to be back there anymore. I hate it there.

I've also cast a release spell to let go of all the negative energy I'm associating with my job and my manager. It work really well at first, but I've been losing focus so I think I need to cast it again, this time in the name of Diana, goddess of nature and nurturing. She'll help me nurture some positivity and abundance in my life, so I can learn the lesson from this experience and see the silver lining, if there is any.

I'll do that and let these asses know that I will not be working any closing shifts anymore. I've decided I won't come into work before 8am or stay ofter 7pm. Lets see what they say about that. I'm almost hoping they'll suspend me or fire me. If they suspend me I'll get a weeks vacation and if they fire me I can collect unemployment until I can find another job.

Anyway, I have a headache. Peace and love. Blessed it be.

Hi *waves*. Ah, yes. Back from the grave... so to speak. Yeah, I finally got off my ass and created a new layout. I got tired of the site being on hiatus and I kept thinking of all this clever shit I could write in my blog before I realized I had no blog at the moment. Yeah, I had a lot of those "duh" moments over the past few weeks. Not very nice.

Anyway, I really don't have anything to say now which sucks. I do know that I have to take my ass to bed cause I have to go to work tomorrow, but I'm not the least bit tired. I'm thirsty though. I should go get some water...

Okay, that's enough dribble. However, I will say that I'm feeling my new Gerard Butler layout and that menu graphic isn't there for nothing. I've finally decided to add some content to this bloody site. Some shit about me, maybe some writing, maybe some fonts and what not for you peeps. Stuff like that. Don't get too excited. You know how slow I am about that kinda shit.

Peace and love. Blessed it be.