June 2006 Archives

1. What was the last new song you discovered?
I haven't discovered one new song, but I've discovered some bands that are new to me. Mainly Avenged Sevenfold, Panic! At the Disco and AFI. Those are all my favorites right now.

2. What was the last new dish you tasted?
The last really new dish I've tasted was the Deep Fried Banana Spring rolls with fresh berries and chocolate sauce I had a P.F. Chang's a few weeks ago. That was awesome.

3. Where was the last place you visited for the first time?
I went to Vegas for the first time in April. That was an experience.

4. Who was the last new person you met?
I meet a guy named Lorenzo at Becky's poker party that used to work for Vons. He was cute.

5. What was the last new toy you played with?
I don't know if you can consider Photoshop CS a toy, but I've been playing with that lately.

6. What's your favorite candy?
I have plenty of those. Right now my favorite is Take 5 by Hershey. It's pretzel, caramel, peanut butter, peanuts and chocolate. It is so good.

7. What's your favorite cookie?
I think the Geneva cookie from Pepperidge Farm is my favorite. It goes really good with ice cream too.

8. What's your favorite donut?
Good old fashioned glazed will do it for me every time, but apple fritters are yummy too.

9. What is your favorite cold drink?
Of all the cold drinks that I love, I have to say that ice water is the best. I just adore ice water.

10. What is your favorite hot drink?
I'm a tea fan, so I would have to say a nice cup of tea especially on a cold day.

11. What's your favorite phrase when you have...

1. Eaten food that tasted bad: "I think I'm going to hurl."

2. Stubbed your toe: "Son of a bitch!"

3. Become frustrated: "Fuck!"

4. Broken something: "Shit!"

5. Been cut off by another driver "Mother Fucker!"

1. Do you have a favorite piece of poetry or prose written by someone else? Care to share it?

As bazaar as this may sound, I don't have a favorite piece of poetry. There are many songs that I think have wonderfully poetic lyrics, but I can't think of any off the top of my head right now... sorry.

2. In High School, did you enjoy creative writing? Do you currently do any other writing in addition to your blog?

Dude, that was like my thing in school. I was so depressed most of the time that I would write these totally complex and morose poems that no one could understand. That was when I first started writing poetry (as I had avoided it for years because my mother was a well known poet in the LBC and I didn't want to be anything like her), but as I got into my groove, I started to write more truthfully which wasn't always dark and foreboding. I won tons of writing contests and even got published. I haven't written a poem in years, though. My blog is pretty much my writing outlet now.

3. Have you ever noticed that the Blog entries you least expect to get the most comments do, and those you expect to generate a lot of feedback don't? Which Blog entry of yours surprised you by getting a lot of comments? Which one did you think would generate a lot but didn't?

Considering that I don't get many comments anymore, I can't really speak to the present, but back in the day that has happened to me. I will say that recently the post titled The Rules of Attraction didn't get any comments. I was surprised. I thought I would at least get some hate comments out of that.

4. Sometimes you get a chance to make a lifestyle change that has a huge impact on the course your life takes. That is, a moment where something became very clear to you and that realization changed your life, such as: the need to leave a relationship, to stop an addiction, to bond with someone, to start a new career, and so on. Have you ever had an "awakening" moment in your life?

I think everyone has one of those moments. Some times they are too clueless to recognize it, but it happens to all of us. I think I've chronicled my many "awakening" moments in this blog with detail; mainly my struggle with the decision to continue taking anti-depressants. Parts of that realization hurt very much--I don't want to be flawed as much as I am, but I am proud of myself for understanding that I can't live this life without some help. Sometimes it makes me feel weak, but I am better for it.

5. Then there are other times where you can have a huge impact on someone else's life. You suggest they see a doctor, stop them from taking that last drink, or maybe just say some kind words at the moment. Have you made a lasting positive impact on the life of someone else?

I don't recall a time where I've ever had that kind of impact on someone. I just don't think I have it in me to be that altruistic.

6. Are there any charities or organizations which you support? How did you come to be involved with them?

If donating to Public Television counts... then yes.

7. Care to collaborate with me? Help me out and write the rest of this
poem:

I drifted though a dream last night,
visions full of colors bright.
My thoughts began to drift to you,
and in an instant we were two.
I touched your hand,
We began to blend,
Filled with a feeling
that should have no end.

It is not just thought that draws you here.
Nor rivers of desire that flow so clear.
It is the depth of our love, at one with the night.
It is vast in its darkness, ascended in flight.
We beckon our lust which falls like tears.
Demanding our blood... our souls... our fears.

We gladly give in, our bodies entwined.
The power engulfs us, raging and blind.
To all that we are, our innocence lost.
I have no regrets...
It was well worth the cost.

I have to say that in recent weeks, I've become a bit obsessed with blog questions. I guess it's easier and faster than having to sit and actually think up something to write that's introspective and entertaining at the same time. I think I am failing miserably at the entertaining part (the lack of comments and hits are proof of that), but then again, I think I'd lost track of what this blog was about anyway. I am not doing this to impress people, but to force the poison blood from my veins and try to heal myself. I am not as arrogant as to presume that I ooze profound pearl-like droplets of wisdom everytime I write--far from it, but like I said, this blog is supposed to be for me to vent and get my darkness out. It is not the cure, but it helps me curb the urge to shake loose this mortal coil. And that my readers, is all I can ask for. So expect a hell of a lot of entries comprised of stupid questions that I answer with glee. As teeny-bopper and silly as they may seem, they are subtle windows to the soul and will reveal much more of me than you might think.

1) Favorite movie of the 1980s?
Heathers.

2) Favorite musician/group of the 1980s?
Oingo Boingo.

3) Favorite TV show of the 1980s?
The Cosby Show.

4) Favorite invention of the 1980s?
Rubik's Cube.

5) World Event from the 1980s that stands out in your mind?
The Fall of the Berlin Wall.

1. First time you cooked for someone else?
I cooked dinner for my ex on several occasions.

2. First time you threw up in someone else's toilet?
I got drunk at my sister's 21st birthday party.

3. First time you did anything illegal?
I can't remember that far back.

4. First time you saw snow/the ocean (whichever is more exotic)?
The first time I saw snow was on a family trip to Big Bear. I didn't get what all the hoopla was about.

5. First thought when I say "crumple-horned snorcack"?
Harry Potter.