A Bitter Pill to Swallow...
It looks like the diabetes train has left the station and apparently I'm on it. Yup, it's official kids! I have type 2 diabetes. Fun Stuff!
I got the news straight from my primary physician on Tuesday and it was a weird situation because after he told me he got this earnest look on his face and asked me, "So, how do you feel about this?"
He wanted to know how I was taking it emotionally and I really didn't have an answer for him. Well... I did have an answer, but not a verbal one. Like a dumb ass I actually started to cry. Not full on sobbing, but enough for him to hand me a tissue, put his arm around me and assure me that it was going to be okay and that he wasn't just concerned about my physical health, he was there for me emotionally as well. Seems kinda cheesy, I know, but I appreciated his sincerity. Most doctors don't give a shit about their patient's mental well being, so I guess I'm lucky that way... especially since I'm with an HMO.
So yeah, my blood sugar is through the roof, like in the 3 and 4 hundreds (which is really, really bad). I'm now stuck taking Metformin (which makes feel like shit) twice a day and also checking my own blood sugar with a Glucose Meter twice a day.
Oh yes, you heard right. I have to fucking prick myself twice a day, like, I actually have to inflict bodily harm TO MYSELF and let me tell you, it isn't fun. I kept getting errors in the reading yesterday so I had to stab myself like 4 times. Needless to say, I'm not a happy camper.
I'm feeling really low right now. I don't see the point in taking the pills or doing those stupid blood test when I know I'm never going to get better. Now, this thinking may not be true, but in the state of mind I'm in right now, I don't see it any other way.
I suppose I should go back to my doctor and tell him I'm not handling the situation well, but as I stated before in the previous post; I'm in the mood for some deep dark loathing and it couldn't have come at a more opportune time.
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I am sorry to hear about what's going on with you. *hugs* You are in my thoughts. :)
Tiff,
Oh, when I read this I just almost cried. I am so sorry. I am sending my thoughts and hugs to you.
love jackie
xoxoxo
The November issue of Reader's Digest has 4 tips for dealing with Type 2 diabetes:
(1) Change your diet. According to Dr. Neal D. Barnard, people who eat plant-based, low-fat vegan diets lose weight, reduce their cholesterol, and improve their blood sugar better than those on a portion-control diet.
(2) Eat more fiber. The best diet is one that is high in fiber and low in the glycemic index (foods that are slowly converted into sugar), says Dr. Dwight McKee. Eating up to 50 grams of fiber per day (that's 20 more than is suggested by the American Diabetes Association) provides significant benefits.
(3) Get moving. Exercise is key to reversing the condition. As you change your diet, aim to burn 300 calories a day through exercise. Dr. Joel Fuhrman suggests that you work out twice a day, if you have to, if you can't do it in one shot. As you get fitter, you should also gradually increase your exercise time.
(4) Try medication. Lifestyle modifications can make it better. However, you shouldn't feel defeated if you aren't experiencing any results. If diet and exercise don't help, try a medication that doesn't cause weight gain. Dr. Robin Goland also mentions that medicine may need to be increased over time, as Type 2 diabetes is generally a progressive disease.
As an addendum, Drs. Roizen and Oz also suggest livening up your diet with cinnamon, as it may sensitize your body to insulin.
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You probably knew all that... But I thought it wouldn't hurt to throw that in there.
I'm sorry about the diagnosis. However, through diet and exercise, you can get better. You may even cure the condition.
Hey Allie. Yeah, I know all that stuff and I've been doing what the doctor told me, but my blood sugar still hovers around 230. I appreciate you stopping by and giving your support. I haven't heard from you in a while so it's nice.