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We are only 11 days into 2008 and already it's started off with a bang. Britney finally got committed (if only for a day or two), Obama won the democratic primary in Iowa (although he lost Super Tuesday to Hilary), and I've managed to get through three full eight hour shifts at work without getting seriously ill and feeling like I'm going to die. Things are already looking up.

I was going to write about all the above shit, but somehow I always find an excuse not to. I'm just so fucking lazy. I would have made a new year's resolution to stop being lazy in 2008, but I was too lazy to do that, so you know...

Anyway, joined last.fm recently and I must say I have weird taste in music and speaking of music, there is a music themed meme below that I got from Kayleigh. I was bored so I thought I'd try it.

The Lyrics Meme!
Step 1: Put your MP3 player or whatever on random.
Step 2: Post the first line(s) from the first 20 songs that play, no matter how embarrassing the song.
Step 3: Post and let everyone you know guess what song and artist the lines come from.
Step 4: Strike out the songs when someone guesses correctly (No lyric hunting! That is cheating!)

1. These are my confessions. Just when I thought I could say all I could say, my chick on the side says she's got one on the way. These are my confessions.

2. I'm holding onto your rope, got me ten feet off the ground. And I'm hearing what you say, but I just can't make a sound.

3. Some boy you are to take me by the hand. Through an elevator, got a little red light that tells you, boy, where the razor's been.

4. You simply defy, I cannot even move through the sky. We try it single file; take on me, hate is my denial.

5. Notice me, take my hand. Why are we strangers when our love is strong, Why carry on without me.

6. If you're looking for me I'll be on the block with my thing cocked back possibly sitting on a drop now. Because I'm a rider.

7. So if you're lonely you know I'm here waiting for you. I'm just a crosshair; I'm just a shot way from you.

8. I'll leave it all up to you girl, I'm I hitting it tonight? I'm gonna leave it all up to you girl, you're gonna break the ice.

9. Saturday night and my head is spinning. I wondered whose heart I've been sinning for.

10. It's Britney, bitch. Every time they turn the lights down, just want to go that extra mile for you. Public display of affection, feels like no one else in the room.

11. I've been gone for a minute now I'm back with the jump off. Goons in the club case somethin' jumps off.

12. I dig my toes into the sand. The ocean looks like a thousand diamonds strewn across a blue blanket.

13. Who could be the boss, look up to the cross stranded in the land of the lost?

14. I gotta ask myself what's it gonna be, babe. Am I gonna save myself, what's it gonna be?

15. Listen to me. I've been around the world, seen a million honeys. Been with special girls. Gave up my time and money.

16. Little blue mailbox, wonder if you'll have the next letter. Little blue mailbox, wonder if you'll ever make me feel better.

17. Tell me what kind of girl would want to play me. Tear me down and try to break me. Baby how could you betray me after all I've done for you.

18. I'm telling you to loosen up my buttons babe. But you keep frontin'. Sayin' what you gonna do to me, but I ain't seen nothin'.

19. The night I laid eyes on you. Felt everything around me move. Got nervous when you looked my way, but you knew all the words to say.

20. 6'oclock in the morning. My head is ready to explode. I can't believe I made it home alive. I don't remember where I went or what I was drinking. I know it made me sick and I'm not denying that I get this way when I try to get over you.

You know, it's weird living next to a highschool. We can hear everything that's going on over there including their Friday night vasity football games. For the longest time I had no idea what "Friday Night Lights" meant in football (don't laugh! I know baseball, the thinking man's sport), but now I know. It's kinda cool actually. All those people cheering on their team with the marching band playing and the cheerleaders... cheerleading. It's a comforting sound... strange really.

Anyway, I snagged this from Jen and decided to fill it out. It's been forever since I posted any blog questions.

001. Do you have a tattoo?
No.

002. How old are you?
27.

003. Are you single or taken?
Single.

004. Eat with your hands or utensils?
Depends on the food.

005. Do you dream at night?
Yes.

006. Ever seen a corpse?
Yes.

007. George Strait or Jay-Z?
Jay-Z.

008. How did we meet?
Through our love of Sebastian Stan.

HERE COMES THE EQUALLY INTERESTING PART...

009. What's your philosophy on life and death?
On life: Try to be as happy as possible doing the things that you love and being who you really are regardless of how others may judge you.
On Death: Death is an inevitable thing. It's pointless to try and stop it so embrace it. Whatever happens after you die has to be better than this.

010. If you could do anything with me, and have no one know, what would it be?
Steal all the HQ Sebastian pics from all the photo agencies in the world! Muhahahahaha!!!

011. Do you trust the police?
No.

012. Do you like country music?
In general, no.

013. What is your fondest memory of me?
Sharing Myspace Sebastian stories.

014. If you could change anything about yourself what would it be?
My weight.

015. Would you cheat?
No.

016. What do you wear to sleep? Usually just a t-shirt or a night gown.
I hate having anything on my legs. It's too confining.

017. Have you ever peed in a pool?
No.

018. Would you hide evidence for me if I asked you to?
Depends on what you did.

019. If I only had one day to live, what would we do together?
Fly to New York and meet Sebastian Stan.

020. Which do you prefer - short or long hair?
Depends on the person.

021. Do you sing in the shower?
Yes.

022. What's your favorite color(s)?
Black and Blue.

023. If you could bring back anyone that has passed, who would it be?
My Grandmother.

024. Tell me one interesting/odd fact about you?
I chew my tongue when I'm concentrating.

025. What was your first impression of me?
Artistic.

026. Have you ever done drugs?
Yes.

027. Will you post this so I can fill it out for you?
Sure.

Haven't posted in a while so I feel like I should do something. Snagged this from Rob...

1) Four jobs I have had in my life:
1. Administrative Assistant
2. Customer Service Rep
3. Web Designer
4. Deli Clerk

2) Four movies you would watch over and over:
1. Bram Stoker's Dracula
2. Heathers
3. Escaflowne
4. Ghost in the Shell

3) Four Places you have lived:
1. Long Beach, CA
2. Hattiesburg, MS
3. San Francisco, CA
4. Lynwood, CA

4) Four TV Shows you love to watch:
1. Dexter's Laboratory
2. Invader Zim
3. Fruits Basket
4. Spongebob Squarepants

5) Four places you have been on vacation:
* Never taken a vacation

6) Four Websites you visit daily:
1. little-sin.net (said but true)
2. MSN
3. Yahoo
4. Google

7) Four of your favorite foods:
1. Praline Pecan Ice Cream
2. Sushi
3. My mother's Pecan Pie
4. Cobb Salad

8) Four Places you'd rather be right now:
1. In bed ( I don't feel well)
2. Paris, France
3. Venice, Italy
4. Sonoma, CA

1. What was the last new song you discovered?
I haven't discovered one new song, but I've discovered some bands that are new to me. Mainly Avenged Sevenfold, Panic! At the Disco and AFI. Those are all my favorites right now.

2. What was the last new dish you tasted?
The last really new dish I've tasted was the Deep Fried Banana Spring rolls with fresh berries and chocolate sauce I had a P.F. Chang's a few weeks ago. That was awesome.

3. Where was the last place you visited for the first time?
I went to Vegas for the first time in April. That was an experience.

4. Who was the last new person you met?
I meet a guy named Lorenzo at Becky's poker party that used to work for Vons. He was cute.

5. What was the last new toy you played with?
I don't know if you can consider Photoshop CS a toy, but I've been playing with that lately.

6. What's your favorite candy?
I have plenty of those. Right now my favorite is Take 5 by Hershey. It's pretzel, caramel, peanut butter, peanuts and chocolate. It is so good.

7. What's your favorite cookie?
I think the Geneva cookie from Pepperidge Farm is my favorite. It goes really good with ice cream too.

8. What's your favorite donut?
Good old fashioned glazed will do it for me every time, but apple fritters are yummy too.

9. What is your favorite cold drink?
Of all the cold drinks that I love, I have to say that ice water is the best. I just adore ice water.

10. What is your favorite hot drink?
I'm a tea fan, so I would have to say a nice cup of tea especially on a cold day.

11. What's your favorite phrase when you have...

1. Eaten food that tasted bad: "I think I'm going to hurl."

2. Stubbed your toe: "Son of a bitch!"

3. Become frustrated: "Fuck!"

4. Broken something: "Shit!"

5. Been cut off by another driver "Mother Fucker!"

1. Do you have a favorite piece of poetry or prose written by someone else? Care to share it?

As bazaar as this may sound, I don't have a favorite piece of poetry. There are many songs that I think have wonderfully poetic lyrics, but I can't think of any off the top of my head right now... sorry.

2. In High School, did you enjoy creative writing? Do you currently do any other writing in addition to your blog?

Dude, that was like my thing in school. I was so depressed most of the time that I would write these totally complex and morose poems that no one could understand. That was when I first started writing poetry (as I had avoided it for years because my mother was a well known poet in the LBC and I didn't want to be anything like her), but as I got into my groove, I started to write more truthfully which wasn't always dark and foreboding. I won tons of writing contests and even got published. I haven't written a poem in years, though. My blog is pretty much my writing outlet now.

3. Have you ever noticed that the Blog entries you least expect to get the most comments do, and those you expect to generate a lot of feedback don't? Which Blog entry of yours surprised you by getting a lot of comments? Which one did you think would generate a lot but didn't?

Considering that I don't get many comments anymore, I can't really speak to the present, but back in the day that has happened to me. I will say that recently the post titled The Rules of Attraction didn't get any comments. I was surprised. I thought I would at least get some hate comments out of that.

4. Sometimes you get a chance to make a lifestyle change that has a huge impact on the course your life takes. That is, a moment where something became very clear to you and that realization changed your life, such as: the need to leave a relationship, to stop an addiction, to bond with someone, to start a new career, and so on. Have you ever had an "awakening" moment in your life?

I think everyone has one of those moments. Some times they are too clueless to recognize it, but it happens to all of us. I think I've chronicled my many "awakening" moments in this blog with detail; mainly my struggle with the decision to continue taking anti-depressants. Parts of that realization hurt very much--I don't want to be flawed as much as I am, but I am proud of myself for understanding that I can't live this life without some help. Sometimes it makes me feel weak, but I am better for it.

5. Then there are other times where you can have a huge impact on someone else's life. You suggest they see a doctor, stop them from taking that last drink, or maybe just say some kind words at the moment. Have you made a lasting positive impact on the life of someone else?

I don't recall a time where I've ever had that kind of impact on someone. I just don't think I have it in me to be that altruistic.

6. Are there any charities or organizations which you support? How did you come to be involved with them?

If donating to Public Television counts... then yes.

7. Care to collaborate with me? Help me out and write the rest of this
poem:

I drifted though a dream last night,
visions full of colors bright.
My thoughts began to drift to you,
and in an instant we were two.
I touched your hand,
We began to blend,
Filled with a feeling
that should have no end.

It is not just thought that draws you here.
Nor rivers of desire that flow so clear.
It is the depth of our love, at one with the night.
It is vast in its darkness, ascended in flight.
We beckon our lust which falls like tears.
Demanding our blood... our souls... our fears.

We gladly give in, our bodies entwined.
The power engulfs us, raging and blind.
To all that we are, our innocence lost.
I have no regrets...
It was well worth the cost.

I have to say that in recent weeks, I've become a bit obsessed with blog questions. I guess it's easier and faster than having to sit and actually think up something to write that's introspective and entertaining at the same time. I think I am failing miserably at the entertaining part (the lack of comments and hits are proof of that), but then again, I think I'd lost track of what this blog was about anyway. I am not doing this to impress people, but to force the poison blood from my veins and try to heal myself. I am not as arrogant as to presume that I ooze profound pearl-like droplets of wisdom everytime I write--far from it, but like I said, this blog is supposed to be for me to vent and get my darkness out. It is not the cure, but it helps me curb the urge to shake loose this mortal coil. And that my readers, is all I can ask for. So expect a hell of a lot of entries comprised of stupid questions that I answer with glee. As teeny-bopper and silly as they may seem, they are subtle windows to the soul and will reveal much more of me than you might think.

1) Favorite movie of the 1980s?
Heathers.

2) Favorite musician/group of the 1980s?
Oingo Boingo.

3) Favorite TV show of the 1980s?
The Cosby Show.

4) Favorite invention of the 1980s?
Rubik's Cube.

5) World Event from the 1980s that stands out in your mind?
The Fall of the Berlin Wall.

1. First time you cooked for someone else?
I cooked dinner for my ex on several occasions.

2. First time you threw up in someone else's toilet?
I got drunk at my sister's 21st birthday party.

3. First time you did anything illegal?
I can't remember that far back.

4. First time you saw snow/the ocean (whichever is more exotic)?
The first time I saw snow was on a family trip to Big Bear. I didn't get what all the hoopla was about.

5. First thought when I say "crumple-horned snorcack"?
Harry Potter.

1. A track from your early childhood:
You make Loving Fun – Fleetwood Mac.

2. A track that you associate with your first love:
I Love You – Sarah Mclachlan.

3. A track that reminds you of a holiday:
America The Beautiful – Ray Charles

4. A track that you like but wouldn’t want to be associated with in public:
The Distance – Evan and Jaron.

5. A track that accompanied you when you were lovesick:
Wreak of the Day – Anna Nalick

6. A track that you have probably listened to most often:
Mona Lisa – Britney Spears.

7. A track that highlights your favorite instrument:
Paradiso – Yoko Kanno

8. A track that represents one of your favorite bands:
It could be Sweet – Portishead

9. A track which represents you best:
Biscuit - Portishead

10. A track that reminds you of a special occasion:
Here and Now – Luther Vandross

11. A track that you can relax to:
Anything by Sade

12. A track that stands for a really good time in your life:
I Love Little Girls – Oingo Boingo

13. A track that is currently your favorite:
Sidewinder – Avenged Sevenfold

14. A track that you'd dedicate to your best friend:
Camisado – Panic! At the Disco.

15. A track that you think nobody but you likes:
Playing with the Boys – Kenny Loggins

16. A track that you especially like for its lyrics:
Time to Dance – Panic! At the Disco

17. A track that you like that is neither English or Japanese:
Valse De Luna (It’s Portuguese)

18. A track that lets you release tension best:
Liar - Korn

19. A track that you want to be played at your funeral:
Witness – Sarah McLachlan

20. A track that you'd nominate for "the best of all times" category
I Only Have Eyes for You – The Flamingos