Depressed Musing: November 2004 Archives

Hi *waves*. I figured I'd posted since I have time before I have to go to work. Life has been sucking as usual. I've been working non-stop, as usual. Pretty much everything is the way it was the last time I posted.

I've been trying to be productive although it's been very hard. I've worked on M-C.com, designed a layout that I like and started coding, but still, I should be farther along than I am. I'm going through a laziness slump. In fact, I've been going through it for the last few months. I don't know... I guess I'm just discontent with my life... as usual.

I want to go back to school, but I don't think I'm going back to college just yet. I'm thinking about going to cosmotology school. Don't laugh, I'm serious. I'm really good at doing other people's make-up and hair and you can make a lot of money. I'd much rather do something creative that I enjoy rather than slaving away in the service deli. I want to be happy doing what I'm doing. I want to get up in the morning and look forward to going into work. I don't want to get up for work and wish I was dead or consider quitting everyday. And trust me, I would quit if I could. But until I find another job that pays more money, I can't.

Anyway, so yeah, maybe make-up artist or fashion stylist would be good in the meantime. And knowing how I have to be all well rounded and shit, I'd want to know how to do everything, hence cosmotology school.

I need a new layout too. I'll probably do something simple, just for a change. God, I remember when I used to change my layout like every freakin week. I wish I had the time to do that. Just chill and be creative. I just don't have anytime to be free and artsy like I want to be. Maybe that's why I'm so depressed. Peace.