Depressed Musing: July 2005 Archives

Hi *waves*. So I'm writing this in a room that looks like a tornado has passed through it. There are clothes all over the place and magazines on the floor... There is junk everywhere and the only thing that's keeping me sane is the melodic soundtrack of Wolf's Rain composed by Yoko Kanno.

I've been dying to clean my room for quite sometime, but have been putting it off for the sheer size of the endeavor (which I stupidly tried to tackle about an hour ago).

The bottom line is this: my room is not really a room. It's a storage place for other people's stuff. I don't even have a dresser in here. I just keep my colthes on a chair in the corner. I can't even consider using my closet as it's filled with other people's shit and I have all this bullshit storage comprised of boxes and metal crates instead of shelfs and drawers. this is no way for someone to live. There is dust everywhere and I'm deathly allergic to dust. I'm surprised I'm still alive. My desk isn't even clean and my computer is my baby. Even my baby is being neglected. This has to stop.

I feel very overwhelmed right now. I have so much to do. I have a bridal shower to go to... I just have too much shit on my plate right now... Ugh.

And I've also found myself cultivating a strange and distrubing fascination with Hayden Christensen. The guy is freakishly beautiful and so not my type. What is up with that?

Oh yeah, and my manager is getting transferred to another store next week. Is it wrong of me to be happy about that?

Peace, Love, Blessed it be.

Hi *waves*. So I got rid of the tool tips on my events calendar. I never got them to work properly and I was sick of of the java errors so I kicked them to the curb. Ah well. My events won't pop up all fancy, but a least my shit works.

Anyway, I like summer as much as the next person. I enjoy the warm weather and the salt water smell in the air. I love that it doesn't get dark until 8:30pm and you don't have to grab a jacket before you go out for a drink with friends... however, what I don't like is it being so hot at night that you can't sleep or that ants feel it's perfectly okay to invade your room and crawl all over your clothes! YUCK!

I find myself falling into a very odd summer time depression. It's like the heat is making me sick. I think part of that is because I need a new fan, but the other part is just that... I feel like crawling out of my skin. Maybe I need to clean my room and purge. Maybe if I get rid of a lot of stuff I don't need or want, It will help my life feel cooler.

I've also decided to go to Vegas for my week long paid vacation this year. Yeah, that's right. I've worked for Vons for a year which means I've earned a week's vavcation. The only sucky part about that is they paid us our vacation pay at our year's anniversary which was really irritating. This means we have to take a vacation whether we want to or not. And if we don't schedule our own, our managers will do it for us. See, there is always a downside to something good at Vons. They make sure of it.

My vacation is at the end of August. I would have taken it the week of my birthday, but one of my co-workers already took that week. That kind of irritated me.

Peace, Love, Blessed it be.