Health Issues: October 2007 Archives

It looks like the diabetes train has left the station and apparently I'm on it. Yup, it's official kids! I have type 2 diabetes. Fun Stuff!

I got the news straight from my primary physician on Tuesday and it was a weird situation because after he told me he got this earnest look on his face and asked me, "So, how do you feel about this?"

He wanted to know how I was taking it emotionally and I really didn't have an answer for him. Well... I did have an answer, but not a verbal one. Like a dumb ass I actually started to cry. Not full on sobbing, but enough for him to hand me a tissue, put his arm around me and assure me that it was going to be okay and that he wasn't just concerned about my physical health, he was there for me emotionally as well. Seems kinda cheesy, I know, but I appreciated his sincerity. Most doctors don't give a shit about their patient's mental well being, so I guess I'm lucky that way... especially since I'm with an HMO.

So yeah, my blood sugar is through the roof, like in the 3 and 4 hundreds (which is really, really bad). I'm now stuck taking Metformin (which makes feel like shit) twice a day and also checking my own blood sugar with a Glucose Meter twice a day.

Oh yes, you heard right. I have to fucking prick myself twice a day, like, I actually have to inflict bodily harm TO MYSELF and let me tell you, it isn't fun. I kept getting errors in the reading yesterday so I had to stab myself like 4 times. Needless to say, I'm not a happy camper.

I'm feeling really low right now. I don't see the point in taking the pills or doing those stupid blood test when I know I'm never going to get better. Now, this thinking may not be true, but in the state of mind I'm in right now, I don't see it any other way.

I suppose I should go back to my doctor and tell him I'm not handling the situation well, but as I stated before in the previous post; I'm in the mood for some deep dark loathing and it couldn't have come at a more opportune time.